Hello Friends! It's been awhile since I've put together a post. The one or two months leading up to Terry's one year death date were pretty brutal. I was back to just making it out of bed and through the day, anything else was beyond my abilities. Something oddly important to me was trying to figure out what to call the day. I still haven't settled on anything. I feel like the term "anniversary" has always been celebratory, angelversary doesn't work for me because I know he isn't an angel and in fact scripture says we become greater than the angels. Home going day is probably more Biblically accurate, but truth is, that isn't all that comforting to me either, because for those of us left behind, Home is still here. It also was wherever he was/is. So I still haven't found the right terminology yet and perhaps with time I'll be able to resolve some of my misgivings. Until then, i'd love any suggestions you may have!!
Once we got past the year date, then we were quickly faced with Mother's day, my oldest's birthday, Father's Day and Terry's birthday. Oh! And we got a puppy!! Those months are truly just a blur. Suddenly, then, we were well into summer with a family wedding, and our big trip to Alaska! Here we are now, summer quickly coming to a close and school beginning again. My hope is to begin posting again and more regularly. We shall see!! I do have plans to bring some of my facebook writings here into blog form and then of course, writing some new thoughts. Please comment and let me know your thoughts. My hope and intention is to bless others through my challenges, to help others know the worst days of their lives are survivable. That what they feel is not crazy and they are not alone, and that with intentionality, you can not only survive but thrive. However, even while thriving, grief is still an active and valid part of our lives. Grief does not magically go away, even when you find a measure of happiness again. It's a strange juxtaposition i hope perhaps i can help others learn to navigate as I am also continuing to do.
